last post for 2012~

it has been a fruitful year i think, 2012!

-final year being a poly student. 

-finished the very oh my gawd 4.5mths attachment. everyday need wake up at 6am!!!!

 but gained alot of knowledge through that 4.5mths

-found him and started our relationship as a couple.

-relax from aug till now, still jobless...

-survived 21/12/12? ( the rumored end of the world)

-went genting and taiwan

:)

Time to welcome 2013!

going to be 20 soon...

there's lots of things i would wish to achieve before the world ends

1. Lose weight (50kg!!!! argh.....still a loooooong way to go)

2. Increase the money in my bank acc (10k by june 2013)

3. Find a stable and enjoyable full time job after exams

4. Go out more often with friends and less with bf

I really hope to be with my friends forever, they are always the one who supports and listen to me when no one does. :)

my tooth is killing me! :'(

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my hair

rebond-ed my hair during christmas eve.
but still, my hair like cui.
very irritated with my hair! why cant it be like wavy, smooth and nice like other people?!
GOSH! really hate it. the rebond effect lasted less than 2 days!
:'(

........

9 more days to CHRISTMAS
15 more days to 2013!

and I have 17 more days till sch reopen.
I have this list of stuffs that i wish to accomplish during this 17 days.

1) Go marina barrage picnic with lala
2) Sing k with friends
3) Reach 65kg
4) Go out with friends!

I really really miss my friends sia... too long never go out with them le :(

the worst has ended....thats why i abandoned my blog for soooooo long!
i knew i tried my bery best! so even if i didn't get good results, hmm...i dun care le!
hahaha!
now, IT'S HOLIDAY!
planning a list of things to do! :)

my dream......

Park ji min and lee hai - goodbye baby

If my vocals were this good......

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i really need to lose weight...... but how?

thinking of how to surprise him on sunday..... (hmm..........)

stress!

cos he's the one always giving me surprises :p

although he has a bad temper, always giving me like one word replies for whatsapp, but i will seem to forget everything after a small surprise from him. 

hahaha! maybe thats the power of him ba.

these few days.....

hihi! its going to week 5 of my final sem in nyp le~ so so so busy with lots of homework, presentation, reports and stuffs.
and, i decided... not to work part time and do my very best in this final sem to pull my gpa to at least a 2.5!
15 more weeks and im done....
but what am i going to do after that??????

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i need to change myself...... :(

coming to end of oct lo...
going to 5 months tgt with him.
around 4 months to end of school life.
woots!!! looking forward^^
shall start looking for a job in jan/starting of feb, so i wont have to really fight with other ppl~ den end up being jobless...
my hope is to get a job that pays me $1.8k a month, with good benefits...so i can save up some money for uni, give my dad some money every month and spend some for myself! ^^
thats all for today ^-^

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woah! i bought this today...after much consideration

as my cath kidston wallet really needs to retire already

so i changed to this braun buffel wallet i bought today at taka.

although i saw one burberry wallet which i like alot alot alot!

but it costs around $900!!!!!

like sian diao la~~~~

too ex for me le....maybe next time when i work and earn lots of money de can

but i like this wallet also!

hehehe^^ same wallet brand as say aik...

the first time~

50 shades of grey......
wow! it's the first time after so long since i read a storybook.
ever since graduating from secondary school, which is like 3-4 years ago?
hah! finished 1 chapter and i didn't felt sleepy.
shall continue reading, the guy really seems perfect (in looks, as described in the book)
continue with chapter 2 looooo!

sky!!!!

woah! its been a long long time since i saw the clouds from above (take aeroplane lah!)
went to taiwan!!!! shop almost throughout the 6 days, bought lots of accessories!
&lots of bubble tea♥

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in the past...

After this 2 miserable days of crying crying and still crying....
I really miss my childhood...
Or rather before i enter poly. When my family is still complete, no need to worry about anything, in terms of family and money.
But now everything changed.
Sighs~~~~~~~i hate growing up

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full house cafe @ singapore

went to this sososo beautiful restaurant for dinner with jiahao on tues!
the decoration is like those korean type lah!!!! princess princess like me^^ the food there nice also! took lots and lots and lots of pictures till i almost late from curfew!
but its a fun day meeting my long long no see friend~~~ chit chat alot and shop shop @far east!

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10 years later...........

what will i be doing 10 years later?
things i should do after graduating from poly? GOSH MAN! all these things floating in my mind..
i know i wanna do something which can provide me a good pay, around a starting pay like $2000.
but with my freaking diploma results, its so not going to happen unless some miracle happens. (which is even more impossible than MIB) :'(
me doing admin job? i can imagine my dad scolding me for wasting my dip and me getting low pay and
worse of all~~~~~~~~ looked down by people..

i really hope at least say aik can find a job that is at least $2000+ starting pay...
like that at least he can save some money!
when he has single digits in 3 diff bank accounts!!!!!!!!
houses in singapore are so damn expensive nowadays~ earning $1800 wont be enough for buying a house man!
if we really get tgt like forever, i want to have a house just me, him and the children....

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talk to my sis about say aik today...
my sis came to a conclusion that, say aik doesn't really care for me that much.
asked him go where on tues (to celebrate my birthday), say go his house watch movie.
abit sian sia...den dinner at manhattan fish market (so damn standard lah!)
we went there like for 3 times since we tgt liao man!
tgt with him for almost 4 months le... no surprises from him at all, no gifts from him...
kind of disappointed le...
what should i do?

MacRitchie walk♥

 

went MacRitchie reservoir hiking with my ah pui sister.

made full use of a day with no events at all~

IT'S DAMN TIRING! :( sweat like crazy!

walk for ~12km (3hours walk?).....

almost died there, somemore the bridge we saw is quite different from what i saw on the internet.

big difference actually!

on the net look so much nicer.

but it gave me a chance & time to chit chat with my sis

and a good exercise! ^^

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Have been thinking my plans after i graduate from poly (which is about 6 months later)
1. Find a job related to my diploma if i can.
2. Save $8000 in bank before i graduate.
3. Slim down!
4. Live my life well and to the fullest!
5. At least treat my dad once for dinner.
6. Be more positive when with him~
:P

:'(

feeling so alone...
I actually found that I have no family members I am close to, at all~
which make me feel like crying... thinking of leaving home and find somewhere else.
The "home" i'm living in now, doesnt even give me the feeling of one.
Like leaving with a bunch of strangers.
I'm like the maid in the house~ doing most of the household chores.
I really hate seeing my dad being bias towards them because of that bitch!
think i will be leaving the house soon.... maybe end of this year or till i graduate.

woots~!
got a new phonie!
white S3!
I super love the camera!
very very power! ^^
no need to get dslr liaos...

ohhh....sad.
cant slack anymore..:(
working kbox next week le.
no matter how i count, also wont get to reach my $$ goal by end of holiday :(
slowly earn bahs...by the time i graduate sure can reach bahs. HEHEHE!
MISS YANLING AND JIAEN LAHHHHHS!
all sooo busy! cant meet up also! :(
plan lehs! at least for dinner... ^^

:)

yes ah!
attachment stuffs finally all ended.
the shitty presentation too!
time to slack and rest abit at home le! :)

:P

Finally~
attachments' over!
No more alarm clock waking me up every weekday at 6:20am!!!!
1 more presentation and I'm done!
but kind of sian lahs.....everyone has stable job.
Yanling, jiaen and even jiahao!
wanted to work kbox with her de..but she has a new job in uss.
shall quit kbox soon... and work something else.
hope my attachment company agrees to allow me work part time for 1 more month.
so i no need to find job. :)

And, I GOT A HAIRCUT!
BANGS!!!!! heheh^-^

GOSH!
i just bought my beloved bag....the one i aim for so long~
Thought for a very very long time le....
before i made payment, i also think again.
hahhahas! $186 sia!
need to save like hell liao~
can only spend $3 on food everyday.
how to survive sia?!

life as normal as before~
especially the fact that attachment life left 3 more weeks!
YEPPS! 3MOREWEEKS!!!!!
15MOREDAYS!
need to rush report and ppt slides le....
lazy to do during weekends leyy.....hehehehe

In the past, i really thought being in a relationship will be fun and nice....
but now, i really doubt so.
He kind of always make me disappointed.
Or maybe i should have less expectations?
I think im already much more better than alot of girls out there... but im still getting disappointed.
sighs...

hello! im back!
finally, survived 10 weeks of attachment.
yeahoo! it's ending soon!

Long time never see yanling, jiaen and jiahao le....
really miss you all sia! :(

HELLOS! I'm back! :)
so stress now.... about time management
how to share myself with friends, family and him??

literally drag myself off the bed every morning once the alarm clock rings...damn! somemore today even worse.
RAINING~~~~~~~~~~
best weather to sleep and the alarm clock starts ringing.
and this routine continues from monday to friday.
2 more days to weekends!!!!

didn't know if i made the right choice or not...
anyways, i accepted him~
just hope everything goes well. heehee!
hope he is my first and last boyfriend bah..
^^

dreams??

I really need to identify my dreams/ passion ASAP!!!!
I'm graduating soon, but i don't know what to do after that.
Or maybe my dream is to be some rich 'tai tai' staying at home, but in order to achieve that, i must be with someone real rich. Hence, dream gone!
can anyone suggest??

Finally...
someone praised me during work, cos i really hoped that i can help them when they needed me.
Esp when the lab is super busy with samples.
Tomorrow going to do much more stuffs :)

got craving to go cycle ecp soon...
this time must cycle to changi beach with jiaen and yanling! ^-^

I think girls are really weird now.
Or it's just me? maybe i think too much?
whenever he treats me better, i will have the weird feeling~
But I think guys don't really think so though...they will just treat you like normal friends.
and i'm like super disappointed now......even though i don't really have the right to do so as we are not really in a relationship or anything~ just friends.....
Because i watched the avengers with him, and he totally forgotten!
got abit angry and didn't know what to reply him.
and just said,
if you say you forgotten that you watch this movie with your girlfriend, i think she will just kill you.

but nevermind, I will get over it sooner or later.
Cos afterall, we are just friends and nothing else.

Today is just a normal day like any other day....
wake up, go work, dinner, use com and sleep~
if my work is not that boring, i wont find life so boring actually.
This attachment really made me miss my friends. :(
I decided to find a job that i will find interesting after i graduate.
BUT NO LAB!

watched the avengers.
Captain america is still so freaking hot can?!
how can someone be so handsome.........
nice show!
really made my week more interesting.

looking forward to meeting yl and el tmr! :)

i'm just a normal human with no ambitions..... ^^

I found myself waiting for his sms...desperately.
but i didn't sms him though.
My daddy ask me not to rush....as this type of issues must depend on fate.
True enough.
I'm going to wait, for my mr right to approach me.
And my love at first sight (if there is...)

77 more days of attachment....16 more weeks..........
so longggggggg..... this attachment really made me felt that studying is better.
and made me know that, i really love doing office job. :)
shall find office job after i graduate... although its not related to my course.
but at least, i will enjoy it!
heehee.

shall end my post here.......(will try to aim to post everyday if possible^^)

I can't............
how am i suppose to confess to him when he treats me just like a younger sis?
It's okay though...im gonna treat him as a good friend. :)
forget him :)

i seriously hope he get out of my mind can?
knowing that his heart is already full with her, i stand no chance at all.
nevermind, i shall get over it.
his weird msg was sent when he was drunk too. the one i thought it meant something, was such a random msg to him.

hopeless thoughts.

shall not be stupid and naive afterall.
Hoping that it means something makes me feel so stupid.
Knowing that i don't stand a chance at all makes me feel so small....
shall forget everything and act normal from now on.

88 more days of attachment.
not something i really like to do though, lab testing. And in fact, i hate doing it!
my chemistry suck like hell =.=''
but still, im fortunate to do something, at least related to my course.
Cos 1 of my friend end up being a storeman.
BUT THE INTERN PAY IS HIGHER THAN MINE!
DAMN!
too bad......sobs (for attachment)

hope it ends fast! :)

watched battleship for the 2nd time last night, with family.
it's the 1st time i fell asleep in a cinema.
maybe i woke up too early. hahah!
but the movie is still nice. :)

attachment, hope i do something related to my course.
if not super hard for me to keng report sia.

Last day of CPTC training, went back school for attachment briefing.
had a super longgggg lecture..kind of bu xi guan going back school.
Got into some lab testing company at jurong side, the pay is really like shit!
But nvm, gonna work at kbox during weekends to save more money.

Watch battleship with friends afterthat, super nice show!
Rihanna is damn cool lah! ^^

finally took pic with the trainer i've always been saying cute for 6 weeks! :)

gosh.
I think im a little crazy, liking him.
but i don't know if its just becuase of that incident or i really like him because of the time we spent during CPTC this 6 weeks.
That incident just can't leave my mind~ him protecting? me from the ball that someone threw on my head and he tried to block it for me, but in the end i fell down and he reach out his hands for me.

super tempted to wear dresses!
but my size dun allow me to~ what is the fastest way to slim down man?!
:(

HELLO! :)
its 8 more days to end of training....yeahoo!
but will kind of miss it though~ hope can work in jurong island during attachment and future.
as a technician?? heehee! since a very experienced trainer told me that we no need to do anything de~ ask banglah do can le!

off tomoro! ice skating!!!!

i wanna see meteor shower.

had a fun day today!
finally~ i got the courage (from dunno where) to talk to the very cute instructor called victor.
he is really super cute! but the way he talk is like those super 'bochap' way~
maybe that's why, many people dun really listen to his lecture.

the aircon in the auditorium spoilt, and it lasted for 3 days le!
3 long days man! It's like having lecture in a sauna room!
argh.....hope they repair it soon~
cant really concentrate in there.....
and we have exam on wed!!!!!!!

17 more days to go~ to end of training...

bet i will miss it! I will miss my poly friends!

AND OF COS YANLING AND JIAEN!

cos im missing u 2 like every single day man.......

so hard to meet although haven't even start working....

end at 8 everyday!

i miss you all~ come jurong find me leh~ :)

finally~ my precious weekends arrived! :)
dunnoe why i feel tired even though i slept for 8 hours.
1st time i blushed in front of my poly friends.... cos they keep making fun of me with this trainer i said was cute.
So on thurs, he came to our class..... dunnoe why! but he just came to chit chat with us cos we nothing to do~
den my friend made me laughed so hard at one joke and the trainer turned around and smile at me:)
hahahah! wont like him though~ just find him cute.
At least make me feel more like going to training. ^^

cant find him on facebook leh~

tired~
im like invisible in the family......
im really glad to have friends, at least with them, i feel so much better......
I shall find goals to achieve, to at least make life more meaningful, with something to cling on.

0. Do well during attachment (thats the only part i can pull up my GPA)
1. Lose weight to 60kg
2. Earn money (as much as i can)
3. Go out with friends more often

hope to achieve this 3 goals. :)

one whole week of attachment training in jurong island~
suprisingly, time pass damn fast!
maybe because we slack and go crazy chitchat-ing during the 2nd and 3rd day, which consist of 6 hours lecture....
den today, like finally, TGIF!
but the things we did today made me love going training more....
PRACTICAL! woohoo! went to the plant!
match all the pipelines with the process flow diagram! super fun!
the trainers also damn nice and friendly~!
i think i will miss that place after we leave for attachment although the canteen food sucks ttm!
somemore only 1 store!
:)

I cant seem to forget them.
both yanyu and desmond~ why?
i kind of like went crazy today and i added desmond on facebook.
cos it's the first time i saw his profile on the recommended friends list. so i just added...
hahahha! i think im crazy! :)

Left 1 last paper, AND IM FREE!
YIPPEE! ^^ today is really damn crazy for me lah, RS paper and i never bring my calculator!
asked the teacher if he got extra one, den he say, you come for RS paper never bring calculator, want die is it?
SUPER SARCASTIC, BUT TRUE~ cos half of the paper is calculation questions.
Luckily my friend got extra, if not i think i will just die!

Monday~ my day of freedom!
going for attachment training and attachment soon~
but should i get a part time job? even my neighbour aims to reach $20000 when she is 21 man!
sucks sia! my bank is always at the damn $4000 savings! not even increasing~ :(

finally~ 1 more paper over!
left 2 more. :)
schedule for CPTC training announced...
damn sian lah! 1st batch. no holidays at all....but can have holiday le den school reopen.
hwaiting!

valentines day~
meet up with friends, just like last year.
haven't seen woonling since then...and we are not awkward at all! :)
when to plaza sing. ate our dinner at cafe cartel.
and drinks at starbucks.

although i hope to find someone soon, but i think im not prepared to have one now.
as my friends and family are more important to me.

decided to learn from jiaen how to make vintage stuffs.
but no talent. heheh! hope she teach me after my exam.. (12 more days)

SS4 count down: 3 more days!

hahah! pon school today. cos it's damn stupid lah.
only go school for 2 hours lesson. ^^
tcc smsed me. but cannot go same outlet as yanling. damn!
should i go?

meet up with yanling and jiaen!
Like after sooooooooo long~ must meet up more often. :)
went bugis. bought my 1st dress.
ate steamboat and drinks at tcc.

I'm going quit kbox le.
I hate that captain pig's attitude. Totally sucks sia!
but changing to tcc, can be with yanling~ hahah!!!
somemore pay is higher!

recently, i have this thinking of myself~
i don't seem to be anti social right? but it seems to me that i only have a few friends i can talk to.
when i'm bored, only 3 friends i can call out.
yanling, jiaen and jiahao
super loner man!
I wanna change! but how?
maybe its just me? like no interaction with people....
i see my neighbour, they are like always sms-ing, cant live without internet....
i dont seem to be the same. how?

happy new year everyone!
long time never blog le~ cos no internet.
finally now got internet le.

I love receiving angbaos!
but lose quite alot yesterday gambling...
damn! no luck yesterday sia~

Wanna buy clothes online and go out with jiaen and yanling!
hehe!

my body not working well le~
i'm super afraid it's suffering from internal bleeding. cos wheni shit, there's blood..
OH MY GOD! I'm still so young, i don't wanna die so soon~
going for health check tomoro....hope it's just false alarm.

1st jan 2012~!
hope everyone spent their last day of 2011 well~
i spent the whole day moving house.
and watched fireworks at night at marina bay. ^^
hope to spent it with my friends next year. ( if the world doesnt end by then...)
hahahs!
i wanna try alcohol.... maybe when celebrating yanling's birthday??